Love odyssey

2010-07-05T09:01:00.002+08:00

LMAO . im so inactive xD .
Anyways .
I shall talk about my week!~

Monday - Study with 5plus4NN [above!] at spot education

Tuesday - Same thing , but at the library

Wednesday - Went out with ShiJiao.Candyy , HueyYi.Chocolate and Weilin to tamp
and slack slack there . ;B [ bought a notebook from artbox for $1.90]

Thursday - Went to Tamp AGAIN , but with Andrew.Bro , WeeXin and XinYi
bought my flats ;B .

Friday - Went to tamp AGAIN , with WeeXin to watch Eclipse , i wanna watch again!
Then we played a trick on EnHao with 2 name tags . HAHAHAH! [ bought notebook from more than words, $2.50]
Saturday - Went for JSS practice first . Then erm . At night , went to tamp AGAIN . went
To Nihon Mura for my belated birthday treat . YAY!! It was yummy! Then we went to converse
and picked shoes for Hoon and Hong , they wanted to buy ma ;]

Sunday - sucked. But in the end , Paul cheered me up . Thanks Paul! ;D

I guess that's all . Today gonna meet 5plus4NN again . Don't really feel like going and being
some extra . oh well .

I'm gonna get out of this emotional wheel .

2010-06-30T18:32:00.002+08:00

LALALA ~ 65TH POST ;D

Can't seem to find any nicer pics so far. LMAO.

Oh wells , blame me for not being a chiobu . WAAHHAHA

Super long never post lerhs . PAISEH!~

Anyways , today went out with ShiJiao.Candyy [FINALLY]!
And Weilin and Hueyyi.Chocolate and erm . . What was her name? ;x

Anyways , might be changing blog url soon .
ANYONE GOT IDEAS? ;D

Anywayys .

Went to cotton on , i plan to buy the flats real soon .
And i bought a notebook from artbox for only 1.90!~ ;D

Yay yay yay

Then er , we go playground.
Play play play , tio meh
then erm . .
We go t1 slack slack
After that went to eat ice kachang.
LOL.
I was shivering like crazy
Aircon super cold ,
still eat ice kachang

Then we went to the pet shop
i want to buy the hamster carrier so badly ;B .

Then erm , go back lorhs ;x .

It may sound boring , but i laughed a lot in the process

Thanks to
ShiJiao.Candyy
HueyYi.Chocolate
And Weilin

For making me laugh heck loads . LOVE Y'ALL ;D

5plus4NN , ROCK ON! [ random , LMAO ]

-Ryoko

Airplanes , man-made shooting stars ;B

2010-06-22T20:37:00.001+08:00

I LOVE 5PLUS4NN!~

They are an awesome clique
Too lazy to update . Will update soon kays
Sorry peepos ;B .

-Ryoko

I'mgonnagiveup,letgoandletGod (:

2010-06-16T17:04:00.003+08:00

Myye unglam face here ;>

Anyways . Havent been posting . Hoho . xiiaoVAL lazy . ;P

11 June was awesome . Thank you to all the people
who made it so special .

12 june i think i stayed at home? Oh wait no
I went spot ed .
Another awesome day ;B.

Thankew to Andom , EnHao , Wee Xin and Xin Yi
Kay , im not favouritising whatsoever.
Its arranged alphabetically . Rawrs.

13 June , The event
omg larh . I was bored for the WHOLE DAMN DAY~

Sianned .
And i got gastric , how awesome right ;B

Anyways . . . Monday I slack at home ;B

Wee Xin stayed over . YIPPEE KAI YAY~~

Then tuesday . . . Gwen came over , we played with stuff ;]
Then erm Wee Xin and Xin yi came
We ate mac for dinner

I MISS THE SOGGY FRIES D;

Saddeds .
Anyways , today im slacking at home again
Weexin's here , looking at me post . Bwahahaha .

;>

Boredd
Hope Esther can come for the zoo trip this friday!~
Miss her ttm and

ESTHER HEAH HWEE EN , YOU OWE ME PRESENT ;>

BWAHAHAHAHAHAA .

i think i've lost it . LMAO.

Thats all fer now i guess . CIAOS ;]

-Ryoko

2010-06-10T13:35:00.002+08:00

Paisehhs!~

haven't been posting .
Lazy and sick .

Tomorrow is my special day~

Yay yay yays (: .

Hope tomorrow can be FULLY recovered .

Fifa world cup 2010 starts on my birthday too ;o .
Wowwies !~

Heheee ;P .

as you can tell , i'm super excited for tomorrow .
Muahahahahas (: .

Don't know what to type lerhs ;x .

so . . . Ciaos!~ ;D .

-Ryoko

2010-06-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

ME LOVE WEEXIN!~

Anyways , just now i was reading all my posts [yes , all 60+ i think ]
I see the change in me
the change from when i was in depression
and when i got out of it
and i feel

that sense of achievement ;D .

Yeah yeah yeah~

Sick for 2 days , sunday and monday .
Tuesday was okay lerh (:

Today going to watch shrek again with Gwennie
I love it too much lerhs ;P
Hehe

And we're gonna eat fishballs~[dont think wrong please]
We're craving for it, coz super long never eat ler .
[PLEASE DONT THINK WRONG , wth O.O]

I'm also craving for gummies ;o .

GUMMIES!

Rawrrs , fear me (:

-Ryoko

2010-05-25T20:05:00.002+08:00

One tiring day . (:

Title says it all . After school ,
went lunch then went home
Coz

IM SUPPPEEEERRRRR TIREDDDDDDDDDD!

But chores were waiting .
Sighs .

It's over . The war inside my head and heart .
Over.

Sorry candy for not being able to go with you today.
But i'm really tired.
I'll go out with you another time kays?
Hope you'll understand (:

Now , i'm gonna spread my 'tentacles' and swim freely . (:

Honour your parents .

2010-05-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

60th post ;D .

Lets talk about the rest of my week ,
since i didnt really erm post much ;x .

Wednesday

Marking day (: . Stayed at home , slack slack .

Thursday

Got some results back , didn't really do that well .
MYE this year is superly difficult !

Anyways , after that i went to Huey Yi's place .
And got addicted to 7-11 cookies coz
they sorta kinda taste like subway cookies
as they are soft!~

Friday

After school , went to meet Esther at Tampines Station
Then we went to TM to book our movie tickets - Shrek 4 [3d]
Wasted $28 in total coz i treated her .

OMGGGGG

Anyways , before the movie we went to take neoprints
In the end it came out with our skin looking REALLY pale . LOL.

Then we went to eat lunch , at the hawker centre near the erm
Long john silvers .
Ate chicken chop set or something liddat .
Shared with Esther as i was broke and so was she
It was yummyyy~

then we went to buy chips . bought 6 packets
Esther larh == Ask for so much . LOL. jkjk
Anyways , then we stuffed them into Esther's bag .
Then we went for the movie

Then got someone at our seats , so we went to the other side to sit .
Then some uncle and his family came
And then he was saying ' this is our seats '
Super fiercely.
Like wth ==

Anyways . After the movie we went to the outdoor playground
Spin till dizzy . LOL.
then went to Bedok inter to meet ara and gwen
Esther went off then me and gwen and ara went to long john
Ara treated us to drinks . Thanks ara!

Then erm , went home with gwen . Wait , i went to her house to help her
pick an outfit for anniversary dinner ;p

Then i went home .

Saturday

SUPER TIRING DAY

8.20am , woke up by Joel's call .
Went to church for meeting .
Joel made me buy Egg mcmuffin for breakfast
as they were ordering in mac . LOL.
then er , we discuss

till about 11 ,
then went home .

Haven't 5 mins , joel called again ask me go back to church
as they needed help in acting .
LOL.

in the end xin yi went with me and she got the role of an ah lian ;x

I got some bimbotic role ;x

we finished at about 2.15

then i rushed home , grabbed my outfit and bag and whatnot
then rushed to inter to meet wee xin
to go to min jin's place .
Go to min jin's condo ler , i forgot which floor she lived on
then she bathing -- .

Finally after a while of waiting , she told us which floor it was on
then we went .
LOL.

Then changed , she did make up for all 3 of us .
I looked like a gothic princess or a vampire
LOL.

All because the choker min jin gave me had that kind of pattern
But i liked / loved it .
Thanks min jin!

I looked super different . A lot of people keep asking me ' who are you'
LOL.

Dinner was yummy , especially the mushroom and the cake

;D

Reached home at 1230 .
SUPER TIRED.

Slept at 1am .

Sunday

Woke up at 8.50
Rushed to prepare to go to church .
Bro went first though .
Gwen took the same bus as me (:

Then erm , service .
Worship was awesome (:

After service , i went to mama shop with
Weexin , angel and xin yi
Treated xin yi to cup noodles.
Actually is bowl noodles , whatever . LOL.

1.45pm, went back to church to rehearse the skit .
Had butterflies ALL THE WAY.
even thinking about it now gives me butterflies . LOL.

Then finally the parents started coming , was usher . LOL.
Imma bimbo usher ;x

LOL.
Anyways ,
After the parents got seated down after high tea ,
jon introed the leaders
then took offering
then they played a video

Then was the skit .
The adults kept laughing ;o

LOL.
I had fun acting ;D

Thank you jon for the chance to be able to act . Haha!

Then er , message .
I cried at the like , call?
To like , wash parents feet .

At first xin yi cried , then i hugged her , wee xin also
all of us ended up crying ):

Oh well .

After that , went to wash face .

Then erm , refreshment

Then gao dim .
Went for dinner .

S21 ;p

Thanks andrew for helping me to buy my food ;D

Then me and weexin treated xinyi to wanton mee
coz she like , no money
in the end , she didnt eat

Nuggets ._.

super pissed

Hao xin mei hao bao .

she didnt even bother to say thank you , not even in the afternoon .

Stupid sia . .

I treat her so nicely , she treat me like shit .

She's gonna have a taste of her own medication ;o

MUAHAHAHAHAH

this sotong has something up her tentacles [?!]

(: .

Justbecauseyourlifeistoughandyouneedtosortthingsout,
doesntmeanyoucantakeadvantageofmeandtreatmelikethat
ihavealifetosortoutalso,

-Ryoko .

Me love weexin!~ ;D

2010-05-18T16:16:00.002+08:00

RAWRSSS

Tuesday , chores . OMGGGG

Yesterday 203 super cute

Ms Yang announced dismissal ,
the whole class [at least , most] shouted ; HUAT ARH!
I joined in .
like , come on ! EXAMS ARE FINALLLYYYYYY OVER .
Note i say finally ;D .

LOL.

I've not been updating .
Omg . . xiiaoVAL is a LAZY SOTONG

Bloop bloop bloop .

I miss being a sotong .

I haven't been a sotong for the past 2 years /
I've been like , a bat .
Super emo .

So now , SOTONG IS BACK!

SOTONG FTW!~

I don't really eat sotong though ;x

Kekeke . .

Anyways ,
ANYONE WANTS TO GO OUT ON MY BIRTHDAY?
People are bailing out on me ): .

Ara -> Korea
XinYi -> Maybe going China
Estie -> Maybe going China
Minjin -> Mongolia

Aiyoos .
But i dont really mind .

The most is i celebrate alone .
No wait , i'm never alone .
I've God (: .

Hahs . I'm like talking to myself now .
O.O

Sorry ShiJiao Candyy and ShiPing Jie for not being able to go out with
you two today .

I'll make it up to you two somehow (:

Now , back to chores .
XIIAOVAL GAMBATEHH!

-Ryoko <3

2010-05-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

To passerby .

Here's a few things you ought to know about .
1) It's spelled as BLOODY and not BLODDY
2) You're in no position to say that i'm not fit to be a christian .
Ever heard of these lyrics ->

Nothing you can do , could make Him love you more ,
and nothing that you've done , can make Him close the door

3) I'm trying really hard to kick off vulgarities . It takes at least 66 days
to get a new habit or break an old habit , so yeah , im really trying (:

4) I have given my all to God . All the emptiness is filled by His love .
And erm , you're in no position to judge me .
But if you want to , i cant stop you .

Judge others , in the end , God judges you .

(: .

Thats all i have to say

I'm not affected by criticisms anymore
coz i know , God still loves me
He hates my sin , but He loves the sinner , me .

(: .

And if you dare , leave down your real name ;D .

-Ryoko .

I'm not afraid of you (:

2010-05-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

today is mama day!~

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL OF MY MAMAS!~
Kelly-> biological mama!~
Michelle -> Godmother [official]
KaiMing -> Gan mama!~

;D

went to church , went for chinese service .
It was okay i guess (:
Then went out with Xin Yi and Wee Xin

VWXY FTW!~

anyways , we went to mac for lunch , then go library playground .
Play monopoly deal for like 2 rounds ,
then we decided it was too hot , went back to mac.
Weexin treated me a caramel frappe

OMG I LOVE YOU WEEXIN

I SOOOOO owe you a treat
;D

Then back to library playground , keep playing slide
then play with cats
then er . .
went to kfc to find xin yi's mum
then went to hawker center
bought this HUGGEEE cup of grass jelly for about $1.10
Then saw xin yi do something

SUPER retarded .
HAHA!~

Then went home

Blablabla . Lazy to elaborate .

Mummy cooked tomyam yi mian for me!~

Indeed , a mother's cooking is the best food in the world

nothing can compare to it ;D

ILY MUMMY!~

-Ryoko<3

&&Andrew bro , stay strong , GOD will heal you completely!I'll be praying for you ;D

2010-05-08T09:39:00.001+08:00

Oh gosh , this is going a little too far
At first , i dont mind
But now , its getting a little irritating
I'm so stressed out over stuff
and sometimes you just ask these STUPID questions
that i freaking dont feel like answering

I think that you should give me some time
Maybe after exams or something
I'm freaking stressed out now ,
i cant think properly .

I cant manage my time .
So , if you're willing to wait , then wait .
If you're not willing , then hello to basic friendship (:

I'm not angry or anything
I'm just stressed out .

And now , it would help if you stayed away from me first
coz i might have an outburst of anger or something suddenly
And you're gonna get hurt .

So back off for a while please . .
if you cant wait , i understand .

-Ryoko .

2010-05-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

Mummy poko pants ~

I'm hyper
And im gonna rush out presents

So why am i using the computer?
Good question .

so why AM i using the computer?
Ohmygosh , i think im nuts ;x.

I hereby declare that

MINJIN RAWKS !~

Thank you for yesterday , i love you like a sis !~ [LYLAS]

xiiaoval , exams are coming

STUDY !~

CHIONG ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!~

GAMBATEHH!

nizhuodedao!~

-Ryoko <3

2010-04-23T14:39:00.003+08:00

Rumours and their effects

Spread more rumours , i dont care .
We're no longer friends , you happy now?

I lost 2 friends
JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR BITCHY RUMOUR .
Happy now ?

People who dislike me ,
dont bother screwing up my already screwed up life anymore
Coz it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO screwed till it cant be screwed up anymore

I give up ler .
Say all you want .
I'm gonna ignore all of these comments
and listen to the small and still
voice of God .

-Ryoko

Joshua 1:9 .

I'll never forget .

2010-04-21T18:38:00.002+08:00

Confusion inside and out

I'm so confused
Will be creating a private blog soon
will post more important stuff in there
but at the same time post here
just that here not so intimate luhs
sorry ><

I just cant have unwanted guests
poking their noses into my privacy
not referring to anyone in particular
I just want to be on guard

I feel so uneasy
so . . . CONFUSED
xiiaoVAL , what happened to being STRONG?
What happened to smiling even when something's bugging you?
COME ON GIRL , YOU CAN DO IT.
GRIN , SMILE , LAUGH

NOTHING'S WRONG

I think i've lost all my common sense and i've gone nuts
as in mentally unstable

and emotionally also

one second , i am laughing so loudly
the next second , im feeling down , i feel like crying .
what the heck is wrong with me

I just realised - Dancing really makes you feel better
I danced with all my might just now
I feel better , which is why i can post ;P

If you would like access to my private blog ,
sms or email me kays ;]

wont invite unless you request .
kekeke~

Thats all for today .

Tataaaaa!~

2010-04-18T09:15:00.002+08:00

Kay, i super long bo post ler . whoopsie?
Heh .
So yeah , now im posting ,
I failed 2.4 , sadly .
But i think im going to pass the upcoming retest
coz i'm not going to let myself fail again . muahahha

MINHO IS CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Muahahahaha.
Dunno what to type siol .
Hehe . .
Erm . .
Hi?
LOL.

I dont like 5 stations .

My teacher is practically BLIND . Like , blind . Seriously . . .
I wish that she would get like , specs or something

from 180 become 170
from 170 become 180

WTH?

Rawrs .

Dont talk about her lerhs .
Talk till angry liaos.
RAWRRRRR!

._.

Need to find a new skin soon
but to lazy .

Val , dont be lazyy!
GOGOGOGOGOGOGOO

;P

Nothing else to say ler .

CIAOS!~

-Ryoko

&&Itfeelslikeyoudontlikemeanymore

2010-04-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 50TH POST!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wahaha
today i feel so bored
and tired

why?
why?
WHYYY

Just hope i'm not gonna get sick

And to all those that aren't feeling all that well ,

GET WELL SOOON!~

Miss hugging Hoon for no reason .

Oh wells .

What to say sia .
Hmm .
Talk about today!~

first , i woke up at 5+ am
Then i washed up and showered
etc .
Then i started packing practical exam stuff into a proper plastic
Then er . . . . drink milk
and OFF TO SCHOOOLL!~

Reached school at 7am O.O
Went to put stuff in kitchen ;D

Then er . .
Assembly etc
Then er [i keep saying then er. LOOL!]

History

BORINGGGG

but i got 19/21 for PAL test
Oh yeah
Hallelujah
Praise the Lord!
-starts dancing happily-

AHEM
sorry .

Now back to my day

After History , recess
after recess . . .
MATH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
The horror!
-faints-
;P

Anyways , had to measure the netball court
So i , with my tiny feet, started measuring how many of my feet one side is
The longer side is 127 footsteps . LOL!

My shoe is 24cm long only sia o.o

I have tiny feet ;D
-grins-

Anyways . . .
After math was

ART!~
So funn
I seriously screwed up the teachers face
I erase erase erase
Then the paper got hole O.o
LOL!!

So i got a new paper luhhs
Then Mr Isaac took over Ms Lee , i think she need to go meeting

then RenHui imitated Mr Isaac .
And stared at his stomach .
LMAO!
Damn funny sia

Anyways
After art was HOME EC!~

rushed to kitchen

to my surprise and horror
MDM RUKMANI was there
Oh my gosh , i never unfold skirt .
Then i rush to the back
Then pull pull pull till my skirt touch my knee ;P
then er
we did practical exam when Mdm Rukshana
came back from her meeting ;D
Not enough time to finish my Shepherds pie

And it fell apart
I think coz of the missing cream of mushroom
Its supposed to stick it together , i suppose
Then to make it not so dry

UGH
Taste so horribly dry .

><
should've done fruit tartlets
Anyways , i'm going to do fruit tartlets at home someday
;D
-grins-
maybe tomorrow bah

HEHEEEE

Then met ara and gwen
went mac

Ate ate ate
Talk talk
Then ara left then all of us left
Went home
Slept at 5.02pm
Woke up at 5.30 coz i set alarm
then er . I stretching
suddenly got cramp

Hengs it was a fast one

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Then use comp
comp comp comp

Nothing to do ler
then blog ;x

HEEE

Thats all

-Ryoko<3

&&I'msorry .

2010-04-05T20:13:00.003+08:00

GOD is healing me inside , i can feel it

Refreshed
Renewed ,
on fire for Him once again

I looked for the love i needed in all the wrong places
God is where i should look

ILOVEGOD!~

Loved yesterday

SALAD -> Togetherness ;]

-Ryoko <3

No joke today , sorrehs , too lazy to find ;x .

2010-03-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

Action may not always bring happiness;
but there is no happiness without action.

Love is like glass , sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try hurting yourself by putting them back together.

That was . . .emo? LOL.

Anyways , on to TODAYYYYYYY!~
Hmm . Today is BORING .
How about yesterday? ;]

Yesterday i brought RenHui to church
YAYYIESSSSS

Had youth service etc .

After youth i went swimming with

Honghong , Jaime , Cheryl and Melody !~

FUNNNNNNNNNNN~

Yays ?
LOL.

Nothing to write le leii . . . . )):

Oh well. Joke again !~

A wealthy man decided to go on a safari in Africa. He took his faithful pet dachshund along for company. One day, the dachshund starts chasing butterflies and before long the dachshund discovers that he is lost.

So, wandering about, he notices a leopard heading rapidly in his direction with the obvious intention of having him for lunch. The dachshund thinks, "I'm in deep trouble now!" Then he noticed some bones on the ground close by, and immediately settles down to chew on the bones with his back to the approaching cat.

Just as the leopard is about to leap, the dachshund exclaims loudly, "Boy, that was one delicious leopard. I wonder if there are any more around here."

Hearing this, the leopard halts his attack in mid-stride, as a look of terror comes over him, and slinks away into the trees.

"Whew," says the leopard. "That was close. That dachshund nearly had me."

Meanwhile, a monkey, who had been watching the whole scene from a nearby tree, figures he can put this knowledge to good use and trade it for protection from the leopard. So, off he goes.

But the dachshund saw him heading after the leopard with great speed, and figured that something must be up.

The monkey soon catches up with the leopard, spills the beans and strikes a deal for himself with the leopard. The leopard is furious at being made a fool of and says, "Here monkey, hop on my back and see what's going to happen to that conniving canine."

Now the dachshund sees the leopard coming with the monkey on his back, and thinks, "What am I going to do now?" But instead of running, the dog sits down with his back to his attackers, pretending he hasn't seen them yet. And, just when they get close enough to hear, the dachshund says:

"Where's that darn monkey? Sent him off half an hour ago to bring me another leopard."

I think this one is better? ;x

Ryoko<3

&&Thankyou;]

2010-03-27T12:39:00.002+08:00

Special bonds

Most of the time , similarity brings people together
But when they see each others differences ,
is that bond strengthen ?
Or is it weakened?

Matter or acceptance
Whether you accept the person for who he/she is
or whether you despise that person for who he/she is

These sentences suddenly pop into my head
Don't know why

Oh wells

Today . . .

I AM ROTTING AT HOME!~

How amazing right ==

Sian sia .

Currently a little obsessed with the song
EENIE MEENIE ;D

Maybe going to run with Aralin at the Bedok Stadium
later on ;]

Can't wait , i want to build up stamina .

xiiaoVAL , ADD OIL! just dont slip ;]

And to end off , A JOKE!~
Not sure if funny or norts ;x

A local business was looking for office help. They put a sign in the window, stating the following: "HELP WANTED. Must be able to type, must be good with a computer and must be bilingual. We are an Equal Opportunity Employer."

A short time afterwards, a dog trotted up to the window, saw the sign and went inside. He looked at the receptionist and wagged his tail, then walked over to the sign, looked at it and whined.

Getting the idea, the receptionist got the office manager. The office manager looked at the dog and was surprised, to say the least. However, the dog looked determined, so he lead him into the office. Inside, the dog jumped up on the chair and stared at the manager.

The manager said "I can't hire you. The sign says you have to be able to type." The dog jumped down, went to the typewriter and proceeded to type out a perfect letter. He took out the page and trotted over to the manager and gave it to him, then jumped back on the chair.

The manager was stunned, but then told the dog "the sign says you have to be good with a computer." The dog jumped down again and went to the computer. The dog proceeded to enter and execute a perfect program, that worked flawlessly the first time.

By this time the manager was totally dumb-founded! He looked at the dog and said "I realize that you are a very intelligent dog and have some interesting abilities. However, I still can't give you the job."

The dog jumped down and went to a copy of the sign and put his paw on the sentences that told about being an Equal Opportunity Employer. The manager said "yes, but the sign also says that you have to be bilingual."

The dog looked at the manager calmly and said, "Meow!"

WAHAHA

Quite lame , but its like super cute can ;x

TTFN!~

Ryoko<3

2010-03-26T16:18:00.003+08:00

Covering up no more , being who i am

Today had NAPHA
;DD
Bedok Reservoir
5km [UGH]

Need to run for the first 2.4km , which is NAPHA , the other 2.6 km is optional
I ran at ShiJiao , Si Yuan and Raksmey's pace for the very first time ;]
I remember what Hoon told me before ,

'keep your momentum'

In my head , i counted 'one two one two one two'
Then i realised Shijiao not beside me sial ;x
So i slowed down and waited for her
In the end , she finished first .
Haha , kinda expected luhhs ;xx

Anyways , I feel a sense of accomplishment as i pass the 2.4 mark
Like , I'VE DONE IT

But i not sure if i passed or not
Hope i did , if not run again
If i run again , i'll run faster >;]
I'll train

xiiaoVAL , CHIONG ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!~

&&I miss talking to you

Ryoko <3

2010-03-23T19:15:00.002+08:00

Joshua 1:9

Yesterday was seriously awesome
One meeting , that changed my life
That made the light shining into my life even brighter

Yesterday after school , i rushed home for tuition
then er . . . After tuition slept for about half an hour
Then went to mr teh tarik
to meet Hoonie
Then we ate tom yam soup

SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPPPPPPEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRR YUMMMYYY <33

Loveeee it ;x

Then after that we walked at NTUC
Saw Emily there . first time . kekekeke

Then er . . Walked to park
Talk talk talk . .

Was awesome .
She asked me to remember Joshua 1:9

I'll remember it forever ;]

Hoon , ily .

Thankew for teaching me to be who i am .
I'm not going to give two hoots to those that don't need it
I'll give it to GOD

not just two hoots ,

THREE
FOUR
FIVE
as much as i can!~ ;D

Ai ni oh!~

-Ryoko <3

2010-03-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

Passerby ,

Whatever happens in my life , you don't know
And you never will .
Who are you to judge me ?
Who are you to tell me to buzz off ?
This is MY blog . MY life .
I already said , not happy , buzz off .

Your comments will just be deleted and not taken into account
It's pointless . Trust me

Shaking penknives . Dilemma . Should i ?

Ryoko

Sorry

.

2010-03-15T15:22:00.002+08:00

Treated like a toy

Life is always like that . I'm trying to be cheerful
But there's always these people that will treat me like a toy

Like case #1 .
Case #1

Tells me that i can sit beside her , that she won't leave me alone der
Next thing i know , on the bus to east coast ,
What the heck . I'm so invincible ;]

Walking to east coast , you occasionally look back and pull me in front

I appreciate that , but what's the point of doing that when
I don't talk to anyone? Or more like no one is talking to me .

Sunday ,
I realised that you learnt to be selfish and self-centered

Me -> Pass me one pillow
-ignored-
Me -> -Takes pillow for herself-
Her -> HEY! OUR COZY CORNER
Me[thinking]-> Excuse me? I just asked for ONE fucking pillow . I didn't ask for the
WHOLE of your 'cozy corner'

Have you spared a thought about how i feel ?
To you , i'm just your best friends substitute right?

Don't say I'm not .
Actions speak louder than words

And your actions instantly rebel against your words .
I can't believe it .
You are like . .
like . .
I don't even know what it's called .
Basically its

An untrue friend that hurts me with actions .
I wanted to trust you

Please , be less self-centered can?
Make my life simpler can?
IF it happens

I'll be very grateful

-Ryoko
Tiredofbeingthetoy

2010-03-05T19:09:00.002+08:00

SEC 2 CAMP !~~~~

I shall talk about sec 2 camp today , while its still fresh in my mind ;]

Day 1 :
After reaching camp , put bag in dorms , bla bla bla . .
We first did the low wall
Like . You must hoist your friends up the wall .
Hazim went first
Then everyone was like 'WTH LA! HE 100KG LEI' [not true]
But in the end , guess what?
HE GOT UP!
So we went one by one . It went well ;]

After that we did outdoor cooking
We were given -
10 packets of noodles
1 packet of hotdogs
2 cans of baked beans
2 cans of sardines

We were split - girls and guys
Then some guys came over to join the girls
As the guys side too many
The instructors told us to cover the mass tin with toothpaste
To make it easier to wash

So Yamunah , Kelvin , Syazwani and Lizhen
spread the toothpaste on the mass tin
while the rest looked for tinder , kinder and timber

Tinder - small twiggies
Kinder - dry stuff like leaves
Timber - firewood ;]

Anyways , we got cooking and we cooked

2 packets of yummy noodles
2 cans of sardines [ the sauce tasted AWESOME ]
2 cans of baked beans
1 packet of hotdogs

And it was all superbly yummy , especially the noodles
and the sauce of the sardines
Even Instructor F liked it!!~

After that we prepared for campfire
Like , a cheer
Our cheer goes like this

'We will we will crush you like a pancake ,
Never never rise again ,
Roti prata roti prata
Burn ah burn ah burn you black!

Nasi goreng Nasi goreng ,
Fry ah fry ah till you cry!

Hokkien mee ah Hokkien mee ,
eat ah eat ah till you die!

[next cheer]
5 and 6 all the way!

we will win the war ,
we will win the war ,
we will win the war ,
ONE MORE TIME!

we will win the war ,
we will win the war ,
we will win the war ,
ONE LAST TIME!

we will win the war ,
YOU will sweep the floor ,
we will win the war

56 CHIONG AH!

After that was some really boring nature walk ;x

;]

After that was dinner , dinner was 13x better than lunch
After dinner was CAMPFIRE!!!
It went well ;]]
After campfire was the night hike
I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited

But then the 2NT sabotaged us .
Keep making a lot of noise
Everyone wanted to slap their faces .
Even me . .
It's like , they have no manners .
They keep shouting out vulgarities
One girl almost made the instructor shout the word
f*** to her .

At last , we got our night walk
Unfortunately , i was the last one .
I was quite scared .
Then we walked . We tried to keep quiet
In the forest , the instructors keep scaring us
Freaky sia . .

After night hike we had debrief and reflection writing
SOOOOOOO tired still ask us to write reflection ;l

After reflection , those who wanted supper go canteen ,
those who don't want , go back to dorm

Guess what i did?
I ran with Miruna straight to the dorm ;]
I quickly took my bathing stuff and ran to the toilet

WOOOHOOOO!

Finally get to bathe after one long tiring day

After bathing , i set my sleeping bag and booked an area for the 202 girls
Right under the fan ;]

At 1am , we were forced to sleep
I closed my eyes and i drifted to dreamland
Woke up at 4 plus , about 4.23?
Then couldn't sleep , so i just lay down in my sleeping bag
And thought about how wonderful yesterday was .

5.45am ,
My alarm went off to tell me it was time to bathe
I woke ShiJiao and Miruna up and ran to bath

THE WATER IS ULTIMATELY COLD IN THE MORNING
I had to cover my mouth to prevent squealing

After bath , i packed everything up and headed to the F.A.A
then we had breakfast
It was not very yummy , to be honest

but the milo was awesome ;]

After breakfast we went to flying fox and abseiling
i didn't do abseiling ,
but i did my long awaited flying fox

At first i was very scared to sit down , i thought if i sit down ,
i would slip off due to the force of the ropes
In the end , i was surprised i could sleep
I shouted super loudly 'clear runway'
And when the runway was cleared ,
The instructor in charge said '3 , 2 , 1 '
and i took off by myself
The first impact was super strong that i screamed
Then when it wasn't so strong , i shouted oh my gosh all the way
Mr Rezal was smiling and taking either a video or picture
And Mdm Anisa was laughing
Everyone else was too
I'm so happy that i didn't shout ' tell my mum i love her '
It would've been embarrassing .

After flying fox , we did rock climbing
I was assigned to the boys side
The side where there was not so many rocks
And i climbed higher than all the guys ;x
I was tired , i said 'falling'
and the instructor was like
'you've done this before! Carry on!'
I said 'NOO! Cannot ! No strength already! '
Instructor said 'Try! Go higher! '
And i really couldn't , so i let go .
And the instructors refused to let me down
They wanted me to sing
and i was squealing 'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO'
;]
Finally after many minutes , they let me down
YAYYY

After rock climbing was the rope course
I did my cargo net again ;]
I went first =.=
Then i was at the other end of the net
when Ken was standing at the wrong platform ,
he should have gone to the platform above mine .
Then i was sitting on my harness , waiting for him to move
More of squatting , in mid air O.O
Finally he moved off and i got onto the platform
It shocked me when i faced the instructor WAYYYYYYYY below me
So high up O.O
Then i got down
Then it was Ren Hui's turn
So on so forth

Today was fun

The camp was fun
I will miss it ;]

-Ryoko <3

2010-03-02T18:20:00.003+08:00

Smile like you've just won the lottery
Laugh like you've just heard the funniest joke ever
And cry . .

Because you laughed so much that it hurt

To do list

-UPDATE BLOG!
A lil too emo ? LOL.

And
I'm STILL obsessed with Owl City songs

WAHAAA

Cant wait till thurs

THURS THURS THURS!

camp ! Here i come!
Flying fox , I'm SOOOOOOOOO gonna ride you for the first time

Officially married to Kaveri Letha
=P

Partners for life , btw , cherry blossom misses you !~

Okay , lamoes!~ I'm like OBVIOUSLY unmarried and happily single ;]

If you were a beautiful sound in the echos all around , then i'll be your harmony

OFFICIALLY DISLIKING PHYSICS . WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ ;l . Need cheep cheep tuition . Anyone knows ?

-Ryoko <3

Gonna remove that Gakkuri from my name ;P

2010-02-27T09:55:00.002+08:00

Happy 40th post !

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHERMAINE <3

YOU FOURTEEN LER! YAY ;]

DEAR NIKKE

Anyways , ive decided to be that CHEERRRRFUULLLLL girl again ;]
Keep smiling

SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I've learnt to let YOU go , but not our memories ;]

ILY

-Ryoko <3

My heart has been mended

2010-02-21T21:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is officially declared the worst day of feb 2010 .

1. I severed all ties with nic khor
2. My gan candy had problems
3. Boy problem

3 is the worst

Guess why?

THAT IDIOT DOESNT DARE TO OWN UP .

Eh , grow up .

Dare to do , dare to admit .

You cant hide forever
Sooner or later , you'll have to face it

And if this lags anymore , I'm going to bring Joel in

Coz i dont think its fair that im the one suffering and you're the one enjoying your life .

That im the one shedding tears because of what you said
'A proper guy never makes a girl cry '

You're no longer a proper guy

You're some coward that doesn't think before he acts .

THATS YOU

And nic khor . .

What happened to your promise to never hurt me ?
Liar .

YOU'RE A LIAR ! YOUR EMPTY WORDS
I FREAKING TRUSTED YOU!
YOU B******!

YOU ARE A LIAR .
WHAT , YOU'RE WILLING TO BE THE TISSUE

WHAT BULLSHIT .

You're a liar .
I'm never going to trust you again

2010-02-14T11:48:00.003+08:00

Dear Nikke ,

Happy chinese new year and Happy Valentines day
And .. . Happy Friendship day to you . .
I miss you .
Did your new owner dress you up for new year?
If you stayed , i would've probably made you wear that red suit and mittens again
Sighs

i think by now , you'd most probably forget me . .
But i'll never forget you , i promise
You always are and always will be in my heart .

ILOVEYOU .

Gotta go . Love you loads

Ciaos ciaos

Happy New year , darling nikke . .

-Ryoko<3

'How do i remove the stain from my heart?'

2010-02-12T18:33:00.003+08:00

Dear Nikke , it's been 3 days after you left

And i'm still blurr , but not that bad
I wish you were still here .
I would've let you try my banana muffins yesterday
They were awesome .

How is life in the new house ?
I miss you so much still .
Now there is no one to hug when i'm alone
No one to splash water and see the funny reaction at .
No one to welcome me when i step in the door or
open the kitchen door .

Without you , the house seems so ..
PLAIN .

You added colours to it , even though you're just white

Today , school was interesting
For once i didn't mind chinese class .
It was fun , for a change
And during English , Madam Cheong gave us lollipops
Guess what , we were allowed to eat in class . .!
AWEZOME
Then while she was asking us to read something ,
Petrina , Fazeerah , Miruna and I played bingo after reading it
It was FUNN!!

Sadly Nikke, you can't read anything i type to you
Neither can you reply me

Well , but i seriously do miss you
And writing your big big name on top of my posts make me feel better

From now on , every post shall have 'DEAR NIKKE'
on top . Until I finally learn how to let go
But one thing i promise you , Nikke , i'll never let go
of the memories we had

The fun times

And to XinYi , I'm sorry for losing my temper
but . . You didn't answer me calls . So yeah
I waited for you OVER AN HOUR

Nevermind .

Back to Nikke

Hope you love your new owner
He's better .
A lot better than me
He can keep you till you die
Whereas I , had to give you away
But i had no choice

I'm so sorry

Be happy and be safe

ILOVEYOU

-Ryoko <3

“All good things must come to an end, but all bad things can continue forever.”

2010-02-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

Nikke , i hope you're happy

I'm so blurr after he left

I plugged in my spoilt earpiece into my phone instead of my charger
And i thought my charger spoilt

I used my brothers facial wash by accident

I forgot to take off my specs when i bathed

I redid my chinese homework thinking that i did not do it

I almost got on 14 bus instead of 222 today

When i got home , i looked straight into the space where nikke's bed used to be in

The worst of all

I almost wore slippers to school
I threw it down
And i wore it
Then i realised
SHIT
Is slippers
Then i changed to shoes

STUPID VAL !

2010-02-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

o9o210 - The day Nikke left me

Nikke , i miss you

Never forget me
I'll never forget the times where you sat beside me on the floor when i watched tv
I'll never forget your kisses
I'll never forget the way you smile when you're actually panting
I'll never forget the way you look at me with concerned eyes when you hear me sniffing .
I'll never forget everything about you

I PROMISE . EVEN IF I GET ANOTHER DOG , YOU'LL ALWAYS STILL BE IN MY HEART
BE SAFE , BE HAPPY
I LOVE YOU NIKKE

-Val

2010-01-30T19:24:00.002+08:00

Its not a sorry i want
Its a sincere one

Coz to heal a wound something
You need a plaster
That plaster
For our situation

Is a sincere sorry
I dont have second thoughts about saying it
The only regret i have was not saying more than one

Just because i didnt have the damn courage to do so

So yeah . Here's my 999999999999999 sorrys added to one

SORRY

2010-01-30T18:08:00.004+08:00

I never did judge you
But if you think this way

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME ALSO

And plus . I did mean it .
Its just that you think its my fault

If you say you need time to think or whatsoever

What about me?

People around me are accusing me of being the one at fault

IM TAKING IT HARDER THAN YOU

To tell you the truth [and sorry joel if you see this ]

I DID CUT MYSELF

So there . If you think you're suffering a really horrible life

Think about MINE

I thought about yours thats why i apologised .

Who are you to say i didnt mean it?

ANYWAY

I learnt a new word today

PAWKCAW!~

Hee . Thanks tim

-Ryoko

2010-01-30T09:03:00.002+08:00

Stop using your blog as a defence cans
Dont be a keyboard warrior .
And guess what , i only told my closest friends about this problem
Its not me who told the rest .

So stop accusing and get your facts right

If you are so brave to criticize me behind the computer in your blog ,
Why dont criticize me in my face?

Coz you're SCARED .
You're scared that i'll beat you up .

But i'll play fair .

If this leads to a taiji , you're allowed to bring your friends .
But of course , i dont want to go and have a taiji
Coz it'll be hurtful

And its a confirmed thing that we wont patch

I already apologised , what the fuck do you want ?

And all you could say was 'oh ok'

Ever heard of this - 'It takes two hands to clap' ?

Apparently you think that it only takes one hand to clap
Coz you think that you ain't in the wrong

WRONG .

How can i argue with myself?

HA!

You think about it

I thought about it , I cried over it . And i broke my promise because of it

And i bet you didnt think . Coz all you do is criticize me .

Cry , yeah . And you told the whole world about it .

Now melody is like ignoring me like fuck .

I'm fucking ignored .

Happy now ?

You've won the battle , but you're not gonna win the war .

-Ryoko

2010-01-22T17:46:00.003+08:00

' If no one reminds you , can you calm down by sunday after youth service ? '

Even if no one reminds me , Whatever i see , i am reminded
The post on her blog
The comments

Can i just like leave everything behind NOW?

I dont want to carry on anymore

I seriously dont

Oh my GOD , take me away

and make peoples lives happier

Everyday
on the bus , i remember her
and . . tears flow down

IN A PUBLIC BUS
thank GOD no one sees .

This sucks .
There's no words to express how i feel

Its like . . the WORST feeling in the world
worser than being ditched/rejected

Its like

sad+upset+disappointment+anger+heartbrokeness+whatevernotgoodfeelings

Something like that

If only someone would understand my intentions

My part of the story .
But no one does

Misunderstood

Illneverfitin

-Ryoko

2010-01-21T13:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 30TH POST

In school now

Moodless .

Shoot me , i dont fcuking care . ;]

Gotta go . Lesson ended .

-Ryoko

2010-01-19T16:42:00.003+08:00

Counting the days since i have had a big warm hug

Now im like being total double sided
On one side , i feel sad and i feel like crying
but i dont know why .

On another side , i'm striving to be happy
to SMILE despite horribleness

i guess im just lying to myself]

My heart ACHES now

Life is SOOOO unfair

Happy 1 year of liking him

Yeah yeah

Its best to leave it as it is now .

Me missing him just to test how happy i can be despite the hurt

And its a test of how well i can hide my true feelings

EMPTY HEART ;D

andimseriouslypissedanddisappointedinacertainsomeone

youarenolongertheoneicarefor

goandflapyourwings

imnotgonnabeaffectedANYMORE

May GOD bless you

HOON , I MISS YOU AND YOUR HUGS

HONG , I MISS TALKING TO YOU AND YOUR HUGS

XinYi , IMY . Reply my smses soon ;}

Gakkuri

2010-01-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

Its the beginning of the year , and i'm having a wave of emotions ALREADY

sigh
Dont want invite , dont larh
I dont give no shit anymore
I'm not gonna let the two of you affect my life
I'm gonna aim to be HAPPY
to influence the people around me to be happy too!
I'm gonna ignore whatever you two do , did and are doing

IM NOT GONNA GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE

IM GONNA BE HAPPY
IM GONNA BE WHO I REALLY WANNA BE , WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT
RESOLUTION FOR 2010~

You're not gonna stop me from achieving it
and im gonna lose weight .

HA!

GOD , i love You .
Thank You for putting this new desire to grow up in me .

I LOVE YOU GOD!

And i love you people who have been there encouraging me
XinYi
WeeKiat
SeeSoon
Nicholas

Sheryl
And loads more!!

2010-01-02T11:10:00.002+08:00

Today , im going to like do dedications to certain people .
Hope that they'll read them

First , will be the people im thankful to .

XinYi : Thankew so much for being there for me when i was sad
You agreed to go to the playground to meet me even though it was a hot day
And . . YOU SLEPT OVER!~ whoopies . I'm really glad that GOD has placed you in my life
and made me notice you only 4 years later ;x . Nevermind , the fifth yesr is gonna be better!~ ;] .

SeeSoon : Thankew for comforting me and making me laugh even though you had to do mp
and thankew for that AMAZING meal ;] . Hor fun nice ehs . ;] . And er , THANKEW FOR THE PURPLE TOWEL <333 -stares at it and drools- O.O eh eh . -wipes-

TaiZi : Even though you're busy , you take time and money to sms me to comfort me , i thank you so much for that . You always said 'still got me' but im sorry that sometimes i wouldn't believe it . But deep deep down inside , you know that i believe it . And i just want to thank you for saying that . Coz it means a lot
And you will always try to make me =) . Sometimes it works and sometimes no ,
but to me , it also means a lot . So yeah , just . . .THANKEWWWW ;]

I know that you guys will be there for me . You're that tissue and listening ear that i've always wanted . . ;]

Next , to the people i want to apologise to .

Gwen : I know that we might have some conflict now over yesterday , i was just upset over it . So i wasn't thinking properly . You might have a reason for lying? Maybe it was a white lie ? I don't know . . I guess that we have to meet up face to face .
I think that it will be better . We need to iron things out . So yeah . .

Hoon : Sorry for yesterday , i know that you were like busy with you mp[heh] , but you took time to come to the playground . I hope my present cheered you up . I love the present that you gave me . I stared at it last night . Heh . Im sorry if im like really troublesome and emo at times . I'm really trying to grow up , but it takes time , especially if things are pulling me down . Sorry .

ShiJiao : I know that i have not been a good friend , so i apologise for not controlling my tongue , yeah . Thats all i can say . I just hope that we'll all be friends again . Yeah .

Thats a few . Ill type more when i think of it , so yeah . Ciaos ;]

2010-01-01T12:56:00.003+08:00

Life is horrible ;]

I asked you out , you said see first
If you didnt want me to go out with you all
coz you guys wanted to be with the twins alone
JUST TELL ME STRAIGHT IN THE FACE

No need to lie to me
If you hadnt lie , i dont think i would cry as much
But now that i knew you lied
Tears keep rolling down
My heart aches
I feel like jumping off the building
I feel like changing church
I feel like giving up being a christian
Coz i dont feel welcomed .

Would someone just take my life away .
Let me die

PLEASE

LET ME DIE

I WANT TO DIE.

But at least not suicidal .
I still wanna go to heaven ,
BUT I WANT TO GO NOWW
LIFE ON EARTH SUCKS
F*CK IT .

someone , kill me now and stop my pain please.

010110 .
Seems like a nice date to die .
Anyone willing to kill me?

Tag replies ;

hoony : HAPPY NEW YEAR SWEET!LOVE spam spam
Reply : Yeah. . Sure . Thanks .

TaiZi: Happy New year
Reply : Happy New Year to you too .

♥carrie: Heyy,don't be upset.God loves you & I do too!Hahas.Btw,tagged(:
Reply : Thanks girl , i love you too . but no one else loves me .

TaiZi: HAPPPPPPY =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Reply : Everytime i try to be happy , something happens and i cry all over again .Like now .

hoony: sweetheart, don't emo! Pull yourself out of those gloomy clouds and know that we love you very much! XD MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSSY:)
Reply : Yeah . . Sure . i would believe those words if you prove it .

sheryl: tag dont be sad.
Reply : Cant help it . Everytime something will pull me down when i try to smile and be happy .

shermaine: merry christmas:)
Reply : Happy new year dear ;]

* Sorry if this post and tag replies are emo/insulting/crude/etc
Im just in a really bad mood now and i dont see the point in life
Give me time to cheel
But i will require a looong time
Coz im dealing with blows one after the other

2009-12-31T16:10:00.002+08:00

Happy 25th post

And . . Happy new year

What year is it? two oh one oh!
time to celebrate!

Pfft .
14 next year
Waah

Anyways . Sorry if im posting emo posts , but this is how my life has been

Keep screwing up my already very screwed up life ;]

People change
A lot .
But , i thought you wouldnt .
i thought you were someone i could count on 24/7
I thought . . . nevermind
That was the past
Ever since she came
You heck care me
you dont bother to listen to my problems
more like , i dont feel like telling them to you anymore
Coz why ?
You've changed .
You f*ck care me , then why should i tell you my problems?
Seriously .
And to that girl ,
Continue screwing up my already very screwed up life ;]
Good job .

Hating life now

hating it
to the damn max core

Everytime i think of you , i cry
Coz i miss you .
Not the new you
the old you .

2009-12-16T16:35:00.001+08:00

Giving up . .
I wish , that i would be loved
Like Gwen , Hoon , Hong , whosoever
I wish that someone would love me .
But no , im not .
Thats all i can say .
I wish i could just fall .
and no one would pick me up .
And i would just lie there .
Waiting to be run over
Or waiting to die of starvation or coldness

Icantholdonmuchlonger

2009-12-04T19:41:00.001+08:00

Worst outing of my LIFE
I have only 3 minutes to post . So i shall make this quick
Let's just say i went to watch new moon
With Joedy , Sarah and Gwen .
And i was ignored .
And i felt unwelcomed , so i left .
The end .
Life sucks .
Coz i miss him soooo much

Ihateyouformakingmeloveyou.

Thatgirl

Ryoko

2009-11-30T09:21:00.002+08:00

Its really a wonder why a simple sentence can cause such an awkward friendship
Now our friendship is so awkward , you happy now?
You can have him to yourself again .
And you give me excuse say its been 3-4 months whatsoever
please luh , learn to control your tongue .
Or i'll not control mine for your informations in future ;]
Talking to Gwen now .
She says that people have been worried bout her , then she's so happy .
Sometimes , i wish i could be her , that someone would bother about me .
Yesterday's altar call . Only one word to describe it - BOOMZ .
It was totally awesome , touching etc.
Cant find words to describe .
Out of a sudden , i felt loved .
A different kind of love .
A . . special love . That filled my heart .
Then , you broke that amazingness by using your big mouth
just shut up already okeh?
if you cant control your tongue , dont speak
anyways , the love that is special fills me .
But that physical der [like , people/friends] love aint there .
I cant feel it

Where is the love?

-Ryoko
andimsorryithadtoturnoutthisway

Pics i've edited!~

2009-11-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

these are a few pics ive edited . haha . Requested by GWENDO.

2009-11-21T17:38:00.002+08:00

My rainbows are filled with ONE colour .

Days are dull
Life is filled with boringness .
HAIZXC

Cant wait to see SiYuan again
Monday!~
WEEEHEEEEEEEE

IMY TTM

Missing someone

andstillwishingthatyouwouldtreatmebetter

Ryoko

2009-11-16T14:12:00.002+08:00

I miss you .

Whenever i see you treating her with such warmth and love , tears just well up in my eyes .

I'm gonna learn to let go

To learn that , im not that loved after all .

It was an act .
I was a substitute .

For her . . .

Ryoko<3

2009-11-13T16:43:00.003+08:00

ESTHER HEAH ROCKS , RULES , STONES , BOULDERS [anything but pebbles , coz thats me!]

Hee . Now at Estie der jia!~
Teeheee .
Hold on , hold on . . Until the story is over .
It's like GOD speaking to me .
Telling me . Not to let go [like what i said in my previous post]
Haizxc .
I sian nia o.o
First time i sian in Estie house .
LMAO .
Just now spam LF2.
LF2 FTW!~ So long bo play sial.
Squishy sucks to the max core larh .
%$@^@%$%@^%@%!%$#!%&%&*#^%$&^@^#*)%$@^@%
Troublesome .
GAAAHHHH
Pull all my hair out ;l
Pfft .
I cant believe that p6s actually belive that the world is about to end in 2012
Who believes in it?
Not me .
Coz GOD said that no one will know the exact time .
Hais , if only those p6s will learn that .
Sheesh
They all saying that they will never be 21 coz the world is ending
How sure are they?
Pfft .

Letting go .

2009-11-13T10:22:00.002+08:00

I'm tired . .
I wish i could just let go of life .
I dont know why
And i dont think its coz of squishy .
Oh GOD , please help me
I think i just need a PERSON to be there .
Someone who isnt so busy .
And i just thought of two -> Esther and Shermaine
I think i'll carry on living my life .
For the two of them
My bestest friends .
But there's this feeling of emptiness .
GOD , please fill that spot with your love .
That i may be filled with love.
That i dont give up .
That i dont let go . .

On the verge of breaking a promise .
Imsorryifido.
sorrynic.

2009-11-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

At GWENDOO's house now . Hee
She is now my Baby Ecstacy!~
Heee Made 3 new gans today

Teresa-> Domokunn o711o9
Hedy -> GuardianAngel o711o9
Gwendo -> Baby Ecstacy o711o9

YAY!~ ;]

will post again soon sorreh . i o update my ganzxc ler!~

2009-11-01T21:23:00.001+08:00

Just talked to ____
Crying like siao now
I'm seriously tired.
It's like one blow after the other
And ___ pushed me down this time
___ was my bestest friend
Now?
I dont know . .
I need a physical hand .
Coz that GOD cant really give . .
He can only give me hope and tell me what to do
I really need a hand now .
And a tissue
Would someone just be that tissue

Or would tears continue rolling down . . ?

2009-11-01T19:38:00.002+08:00

Officially ready to let go
It's gonna hurt , but i guess i don't want to lose anything anymore .
Haizxc .
Tomorrow i'm gonna go to Hong Kong!
Yayy!
Excited .
Hope can buy enough presents back .
Haha .

Today
I shed an enormous amount of tears .
Coz of ___
nevermind .
Todays dance was AWEZOME man
WE TOTALLY RULE
YAY DANCE
WOOHOO

-Ryoko

2009-10-31T23:21:00.003+08:00

Today , i laughed a whole lot man .
Morning went to church to do 'Youth news' . i did badly ;] .
The best part of it is , in the end the video was erased and done by another bunch of peepos . Oh great . i woke up at 8am just to get erased . Waaa. Oh well . . .

Had dance practice . FUN!~
The light is rather irritating . Keep turning the wrong way coz of it . >.<
I danced my heart out.
it was for GOD man ;] .

Today , feeling rather depressed .
Ignored .
You've been treating me coldly ever since that day
Do you realize that your actions hurt me?
Oh wait , you don't care . right .
Never mind , i shall just pull myself and you out of our lives .
You were never my Most Important Person
You were just a friend .
You never hurt me
I was stubborn .

Bye to months of close friendship .

Iwantedyoutobetherewhenifell
Iwantedyoutoseemethroughitall
Iwantedyoutobetheone
Iwantedyou

Sorry for being such a bytch .

Anyway , a lil prayer
GOD please grant me energy for tomorrow .
To be hyper and to dance my heart out
I have trained so hard for this .
To glorify YOUR name .
So please help me .
Amen .

-Ryoko

2009-10-26T15:37:00.002+08:00

One boring day at home

I'm really trying to change . But at the same time im reallly tired . Why doesnt anyone understand?

Thankew Shermaine , Sheryl and Esther for tagging ;] . Love ya loads .
Yearning for carrot cake .
Haizxc
Missing Shermaine Esther and Sheryl truckloads .
And also , missing Hoonie and Gwennie truckloads .

Dear ______ , i miss you . . Its like im standing right in front of you , but i miss you already . Not that i expect you to turn your attention to me , but that doesnt really give you the reason to diss me D;

Hurtbywordsyesterday..

Btw , i love dance TTM ;]
Fun fun fun!~
Wish got more time to practice before this sunday though . .

-scarred.

2009-10-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

And in a flash , everything came tumbling down . Am trying to hold it steady . But i cant hold much longer . .

I dont know why , these few days so pissed easily . .
I miss Hoon I guess . She din really talk to me a lot yesterday.
Today was scolded a bitch by melody . Wow .
Shant go into detail .
but nowadays i cant stand some people .
Every little thing they do angers me .
I need GOD to cool me down .
Yesterday , i prayed for my very first junior - SARAH!~
Ah . thats about all the happy news .
I flunked my exams . .
;x
Now feeling really tired emotionally
Coz im dealing with blows like non stop
one after another
GOD , please stop them
I cant hold on for much longer .
I'll soon crumble and fall .
And there goes val . .

2009-10-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hello dahhlinqq readers , im back from exam break
Yippee.
Todays maths exam . . . SOOOO diff.
I think i screwed it ;]
Oh well . After that went to Escape .
FUN !!
Rode the viking 5 times ;x
hahah .
Then went to went and wild 2 time . ;x
FUN FUN FUN .
hehe .
Went with Si Yuan[dumbdumb] and Raksmey
and Soudav and Kim ;P
haha .
Now my insides feel like their not in the right place.
Haiyoooo D;
Hehe . . .
Then after that we went for dinner ;x
then erm , we went toilet at whitesands
si yuan keep taking picture
then the looking at the picture
they anyhow walk out of the toilet
then they turn right immediately
i was thinking 'exit so near meh'
then i realised . OMG IS THE BOY TOILET!~
then i said 'why you going into...'
and a guy came out ;x
HAHAHA
i laughed loads loads loads .
We on bus still laughing ;x
Haha .
I soo hyper..
Cant wait to see gwennie tomorrow
Oh yes . The trick to not feel sick on viking is . .
'close your eyes , lean on your friends shoulder '
hehe .
relax , the more you think the more you will be scared
haha .
then i on viking i no voice to scream
so i shout
scream is like eeeeekk
i was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
LOL.
like some guy ;x
hehehehehhehee

Going to end here today .

Special Message

Joel papa , today you're 21 .
May GOD bless you and may HIS angels surround you forever
Stay happy , cheerful , funny[haha] and healthy .
Dont give up!
JIAYOU!
Nu er is going to be cheering you on >:)
NuerLOVESpapa [not the wrong way kay -.-]

Byee!~

Going to sleep .
Really tired after such a long day

P.S : Raksmey , take care while you're in Cambodia kay? Love ya ;] and i want my wallet der wor!~

2009-09-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hello darlinqqs~ Today i am very HIGH for no particular reason
FREAKY o.o
Anyways , ill be away for an exam break . might be online . hehe
But ill stop blogging till about 20 october , when exams end
Speaking of 20 october , 20 october is my dahhlinqq joel papa de . .
SHENG RI!
a matured 21 liao .
[maybe not so matured]
kekeke.
Today i learnt the korean alphabet.
MUCHAAAA!~
Quite fun
Today miss loke din come
THEN GOT 1 AND A HALF HOUR OF DUMB MATH -dies-
I was bored to bits can ,
then recess
After recess 1 hour of cheena .
I be guaii today , since i in good mood . muchaa.
then i listen to cher .
Answer questions . bla bla ;x
Then . .
GUESS WHAT
ONE AND A HALF HOUR OF MORE MATH! WOW.
Total - 3 hours.
Of dumb math
And 45 mins wasted in math for . .
mdm anisa's scolding.
WOW.
we were like thinking ' keep going '
coz we dont want her to teach.
You will be bored to nuggets ;l
Ahh well .
Currently really thirsty , but the kitchen so dark , i scared D;
Ah well . . .
Wait for mummy come back
then i gulp down loadsa water ;]
Today met aralin after mr rajoo's supp lesson .
Mum's back . CIAOS ;]

bye bye till 20 oct.

-Ryoko<3

2009-09-23T21:08:00.001+08:00

Give me a reason to lift my head up .
Give me a reason to continue living .
Sigh .
Today in deep deep deep spirits
Faking a smile every time i cry .
Smiling , pretend that nothing has happened
But the hurt is there
. . .
Thats all i gotta say .

ciaos .

Ryoko

2009-09-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

Tuhhday . .

I FRAPPEDDDDD! ;D
many many many many thanks to SiYuan
muchaaa!~
;x .
Tomorrow maybe not going to frappe with WeeKiat ler
Coz . . . . I have oral ;l . then again , maybe i going
See my mood tomorrow .
Now im hyper coz i just frapped! ;D
whee whee whee
Whoopsie candyy , accidentally spelt your name wrongly coz i typing too fast . haha.
Sorry sorry sorry!
Changged ler ;]
Today i hope everyone will catch the hyper bug!
from MUAAA!
hahhahaahahahaha
im shoooooooo happy
i turning siao siao ler D;
AHH!~
Heh .
Cant wait to frappe again soon!
Gonna be a deejay at http://www.habbo-district.co.cc/
Soon . when the website is finally settled
heh

LOVE ALL ;D

hugz and kisses.

Ryoko<3

2009-09-21T09:30:00.000+08:00

Muchaaaa
Zao an hao !
Haha
Today im in a good but bored mood .
sigh sigh
Melody asking me to go out to do sports with her .
Thinking of going swimming
with aralin etc
Sigh sigh
i want to go out
i NEED to frappe today
muaha!
Yesterday was the pasar malam for cheena service
FUN FUN FUN
me and esther were helping brian at the fishing
then after that we went to play
there was this game where you use the catapult
and shoot .
if you hit a toy , you can get it
then i wanted elmo toy .
din hit D;
ask linette friend help me , also miss
Esther got loads of toys
haha .
Then i was like sad
THEN SUDDENLY LINETTES FRIEND GAVE ME ELMO THAT I WANTED!
uber happy!
I will upload pics of what i have soon
A reindeer , a winnie the pooh with no clothes and an elmo!
The rest esther took . haha
but i like her mashimaro heh
haha . nevermind
im satisfied with
ELMOOOOO
muaha
Sheryl got alot too
her neighbour helped her to shoot
haha
Anyways ,
heard that melody and Hoon argued.
Hope the two of you will be friends again .
One of you just have to make the first step and apologise
and you have done your part in wanting to rebuild that friendship
jiayou! ;]

Weekiat , jiayou too! Your work isnt easy , from what you tell me
GO FOR IT YEAH!
HAIRBAND HAIRBAND!!
;]
Wo men zai zhi chi ni o!

aha

Ultimately happy

-Ryoko<3

2009-09-19T15:22:00.000+08:00

Today i am ROTTINGGG at home
I am CRAVING for my darling caramel frappe
Its CALLING out to me D;
Oh well . .
Hoping to go out soon .
I DONT WANNA STAY HERE THE WHOLE DAY!
Ahhh!
Talking to Esther
I really miss Shermaine
I hope this sunday at the pasar malam ,
she will be there
I will hug her nia! ;D
muahahah .
I siao liao o.o
haha!
Currently missing the feeling of being hugged
I D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E-L-Y need a hug
Do you know the warmth of a hug?
Its just like a mums hug
Just that . This time , its from someone who CARES and LOVES
someone called a FRIEND .

Ryoko <3

2009-09-18T16:24:00.001+08:00

Oh yea , today i made 2 new gans!

18o9o9

My official date for my gans

They are [drumroll]

SiYuan ; Gan dumbdumb!
ShiJiao ; Gan candyy! ;D

YAY.

clap clap clap

[they are the two best friends mentioned on the post below]

THEY ARE CHIO CAN!

im the only extra one ;x

2009-09-18T16:19:00.000+08:00

Havent posted in like some time .
IM GONNA BE A DJ!
Website - tbc ! ;P
Two guys who are bestfriends
like my two other bestfriends
wow.
sometimes i get a tee wee bit jealous when they talk about the guys
when they say i miss-die-him
when they talk to them and im the lamppost , lighting up .
Sigh.
i need more of GOD to fill this empty space in my heart
And i need a hug.
A big warm hug
Today , im going to shut myself in the room later
I'm going to cry away all my sorrows .
Like what i usually do
But this time , with the aim to be happy again after crying them away
;]

worried about braces still .

BYE!

Ryoko<3

2009-09-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

Tuhhday!

tuhhday im freakish-ly snappish
why?
1) im tired
2) NO BFAST AND LUNCH

Gaah .
Had lunch at 4 . WOW
SPORTS WAS FUN FUN FUN~
Cant wait till next next week
CAPTAINS BALL FTW!
Yeah ;D

Then went to long john silver for dinner
KEEMENG TOLD EVERYONE ABOUT KL
KENA TEASED LIKE WHAT CAN D;
Ah well .
I rejected him so yeah
loving this new blog url ;D

I'm still pulling hair over the braces matter

Answer me this ;

Will i always be xiiaoVAL to you no matter what happens to me?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

2009-09-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

Heh . Today i am happy Coz i finally can FEEL that i dont like him anymore!
;D
Have a teensy craving for coke nowadays.
AHH Caffeine! D;
Oh well . .
I'm going to try to enter the musical
As China or Japanese doll
I'm gonna GO FOR IT!
And btw , ill try not to have emo , overly angry/sad posts
Coz people have been complaining luh
I should have the joy of the Lord! It is my strength! ;D

Yayay!

Now , for a little teensy part of emo time
I'm gonna put braces soon
I fear -
When i put braces ,
I will no longer be xiiaoVAL . .
I will be choubaguai VAL .
I'm ugly , yeah
But i dont wanna be called choubaguai VAL 24/7.
Ah well .
Its only for 2 years .
2 stupiiid years and i will be VAL again ;D
Charchar , wish you were here . I feel like hugging you o.o
Waiting anxiously for sunday!
Gonna wear my new striking yellow jacket! ;D
YAY!
Byee!
-Ryoko